What's the best thing about 39 year old's?

 As part of my REHAB, I was forced to consider what I should do in the future. I was told to finger (figure) out what I should be doing by the time I hit 40. 

Dear Diary,

When I am half-way to 80, I :

Don't want to be in the same mental state that I am right now that's for sure! I am presently stuck. Stuck in the past, stuck in the present, and stuck trying to think about how I envision my future. The biggest reason I feel stuck? I don't have any goals! 

 By the time I'm 40 years old, I really hope that I have a source of income that will be around for the next decade or so. I would love to not have to worry or think about trying to find a job, what it's going to be, or what my career will be. I also hope that I have a better housing situation figured out. While it is very awesome to get rent free from the parental units, there really isn't anything ideal about my situation. 

I am living their dreams, their life, and I feel that because it isn't my place, that nothing I do really matters until I get my own place. So hopefully by the time winter starts, I will have a job that I will conceivabley keep until the end of time. Once I have procured the job, than I would like to get housing reasonably close, ideally within biking distance so I don't have a to drive so damn much. 

Once I have a job and a place, I would like to start dating like a normal human. By the time I'm 40, ideally I will be with my forever girl. I also hope to be around 200 pounds, in good physical shape, and regularly seeing doctors and dentists and other things that normal people are accustomed to. I'm hoping that I will have taken advantage of my mothers constant research into food, and have broken most of my bad habits that I have learned over the past three and a half decades. 

I hope that I am largely cutting out sugar, processed meats, and processed anything for that matter. 

(I literally just bit into a chunk of cheese. Fucking Triggers.)

I sincerely hope I am eating real food, and it is not a chore to go to the grocery store and have no clue what I should get for myself. If my current vehicle, the Silver Bullet, makes it to the year 2023, I will be very uber impressed! While I'm not expecting it, I accept any and all surprises. Most of all, by the time I'm 40, I hope I have figured out that setting goals and manifesting them are real things, and it is entirely possible that everything I mentioned here will unfold in dramatic fashion completely unexpectedly but in a Domino Mutha Fucka kind of way. 

 Thank you for reading, Dominic

Now go to bed.